Or, if you would prefer to just listen…

The singer is Shawn Hlookoff, and I’m sure the person I’m thinking of as I listen to this song knows that it’s them I am actually thinking of (Assuming they even are aware that this place exists, and have gone through the trouble of actually checking it) , so I’ll just say… I love you Tami (you know, in case there was that small shadow of doubt or something ).

And hey look, there’s lyrics too.  Just for those who are too lazy to listen to the song. 

When I first met you, I was shy
I could not talk, I was toungue tied
You had something that I couldn’t resist
It doesn’t get much better than this

Our first date was long ago
We did not rush, we took it slow
No one guessed we’d be a hit
It doesn’t get much better than this
It doesn’t get much better…

If you want a star, I’ll pull one down
If you need a lift, I’ll get you around
Every day I’m blessed by your kiss
It doesn’t get much better than this

We all share a perfect love
Sometimes it’s smooth, sometimes it’s rough
And we may have our differences
It doesn’t get much better than this
It doesn’t get much better…

If you want a star, I’ll pull one down
If you need a lift, I’ll get you around
Every day I’m blessed by your kiss
It doesn’t get much better than this

If you want a star, I’ll pull one down
If you need a lift, I’ll get you around
Every day I’m blessed by your kiss
It doesn’t get much better
Than this…

We each have a quest… a goal in life that we aspire to reach.  While some are misguided along the way, others succeed with phenomenal results, leaving the rest of us in awe at what they have managed to do in their short time here.
I thought I knew why I was here.  Note the use of past tense.  Events that have taken place in this past year has sent my “plans” into chaos, calling for a sudden “rewrite”.  A few times, I thought I had it all figured out again, only to have life toss another grenade in my direction, throwing things into disarray.  Well, I think this time I might have it beat.  I hope so, at least, because this current quest… this current goal to which I wish to aspire to reach, is one that I can be happy with.  It’s not merely to survive, nor to “have the most toys”.  No, the quest I have picked to follow is something different from those.  I have finally found love, and through it, happiness.  Yeah, sappy moment.  But ya know something?  That’s cool, because even when I have moments of doubt where I question if these feelings are real or just in my mind, Tami does something that totally blows me away and reminds me that it’s for her I now breath.
Will she ever see this?  Likely not… I’ve never been known as much of the blogging type, so no one really follows up on it.  But even if she never does actually read this, I still hope she knows how I feel for her, and what she means to me.
I may not be the best person in the world, or even in the same class… but I’m the best me I can be, and that seems to be enough for her.  I hope you all find love, wherever it may be.  And when you do, make sure you never let it go.

So… if you’re looking at this, then obviously you notice that I made a change.  After a few years of staring at the flash site, I decided it was time to just steer away from the conventional website and moved over into the conventional blog.  Well, sort of.  I imagine that as time progresses, I’ll become bored with this, and make even more changes to it, turning it into an eventual disaster of a site that is totally impossible to navigate, leading to yet another “redesign”.

Uh huh.

Anyway, what’s up in my life.  Well, I’m happy… that’s something that is still fairly new in my life.  I moved back to BC after 7 years away, and am now with a wonderful woman named Tami, who has amazingly managed to fill in a very large hole in my life that started when I first moved from BC.  We haven’t picked a date for the actual wedding, but it’s coming sometime (she has the ring, so it’s got to ;)).  She was there for me through every problem I experienced while I was in Michigan, offering me advice and just being my emotional anchor… but it wasn’t until I was back in BC before I realized what was always there right in front of me.  Guys are slow like that.  I guess sometimes it’s all about taking chances.

I took another one of those the other night too (chances, that is).  On a whim, decided to see if I could find Tanis on facebook.  I had one hit, but there was no picture (and a security feature on facebook is that people can’t view your profile unless you are on their friends list).  I sent a random message to someone else on her friends list asking if it was really the Tanis I knew (linked a picture of her and I together), and amazingly, I am now back in contact with my best friend who I have not seen in 10 years.  It’s like everything is suddenly coming together, and making up for all the shit that I had to go through while I was gone.  Karma, perhaps, or just life saying “I guess you deserve a break for once”.

Still trying to adapt to being back in a city… well, sort of a city anyway.  The idea of being able to hear things at night is a bit of a blend between refreshing and annoying.  Its refreshing to hear that “white noise” in the background, but at the same time, I swear if the neighbours behind us don’t shut their little football up at night, the least of their concerns will be whether their drunk friend can find his car at 3 AM (last night… you had to be there).  It’s nice having stores nearby though… that’s something you really miss when you’re on Pender.  No need to get in a vehicle or spend an hour walking just to go get a pop or a snack.

Anyway, I guess that’s sufficient for a first post.  At the moment, I’m sort of more testing that this will actually post (yay for post to email!) and how it looks when/if it does.

Hope everything is going well for you all (those who care to actually read this).

- Me

Now Playing: Snow Patrol - Chasing Cars

Have you ever wondered what exactly it is you are here to do?  I mean, obviously everyone is here for some reason, although a few (off the top of my head) fail miserably at even some of the most simple of tasks and cause for the masses to request a little more chlorine in the gene pool… but have you actually laid in bed at night, in the dark when it’s really quiet, and just think about… well, why?
Then out of nowhere, the person you absolutely adore rests her (or his, for you women) head on your chest or shoulder and wraps their arm around you, letting out a relaxing sigh… and everything suddenly makes sense.  You know why you are here.  You are meant to be a pillow.  And you know what?  Its even better when you’re totally okay with that, because how hard can it be to screw up as a pillow?

I just felt like posting random crap because my myspace was becoming neglected by it’s owner lately, and needed something new.

Hope everyone reading this is doing well in whatever path life has tossed them down.  Take care. 

Now Playing/Watching: Snow Patrol “Chasing Cars”
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ajy0w1XPJk8 (US Version)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BSfw-qWAJ4w (The Better Version)